Communication

Ok, so I had one of the most amazing weekends ever - I went out with my two closest friends and my STEPMOM(!!!) on Friday night, and I swear, my stepmom had the most fun she's had in years... Then on Saturday night I was treated to a "date" by one of my good female friends - it was the sweetest thing!! She brought me roses and everything, and it was just so nice to know that someone really cared that much!! And then we went and hung out with some of her friends, and one of my friends that I haven't seen in a year!! The night ended with the guys walking my friend and I back to my house, where we dyed her hair at 3:30 in the morning, and stayed up until 5:30 just doing girl chat!

Then last night I went and picked up my best friend (one of the ones I went out with on Friday) and we talked and walked around for 2 hours (until like 11pm ish) and we just had an amzing chat about everything that's been going on lately, and how much we love each other, and how much we've gone through, and it was really inspiring to have that validation, because we're both critical people, and we've focused a lot lately on what needed to be improved in our relationship, and last night we gave eachother a big huge ego boost about what wonderful women we are. We also bitched about my other best friend - her boyfriend, and got all of our issues out in the open,a nd decided that the three of us should have atalkabout them respecting my house and not leaving it a bloody pigsty everytime they come over, which was nice lol.

And then I went and hung out with one of the guys who walked us home on Saturday night, and he's such a sweetheart!! We stayed up until 2:30 just talking, and it was a great communication thing, and I felt so in awe of the world in general, and really quite loved and pampered!!

Bringing me to the point of this whole thing - what is it about connections with other people that makes us feel so loved? Why do we as a people need to connect with someone or something pretty much at all times? Is this need then possibly a reason for the world's obsession with sex? Because we have forgotten how to talk to people?

I can comparatively say that I feel more emotionally and mentally and spiritually fulfilled when I am talking to people as opposed to driking, or partying, or engaging in sexual activity. I'm not going to lie - I'm really no angel when it comes to the party scene, but I don't go out all that often, and would much rather have people over at my place, or go for a walk, and just sit and talk about life and everything in general...

Not only that, but some people spend a lot of their life not examining or experiencing anything!! I want to experience EVERYTHING!!! I want to live life in every direction at once, and yes, sometimes I'm exhuasted, but all in all, I think it's a good way for me to live because I can sit and have amazing intelligent conversations with people who are two or three times my age, and I can look at everything from different perspectives that people wouldn't expect. Like, kids for instance - what do you think an 18 yr old would know about having kids?? Well, I dated this guy with a 10 yr old kid, and was kind of like the stepmom for a while, and it's a BIG responsibility to look after another person's life!!

Point being that I try to understand experiences through communication with other people, and sometimes there's this distinct connection - and I'm not sure if it's just my personality type, but I love to engage in experiences, and examining life and I tend to draw people to me with simalar energy. It was just the best weekend because something was right, and I had a great connection with a lot of people!!

I'm excited to see that guy again tonight!!! And my best friend and I are going for a workout (yay!!) so I'm going to have a great day today too!!

~~LOVE~~