Dashboard

Well, it would've been, could've been worse than you would ever know. Oh, the dashboard melted, but we still have the radio:

It's true

your life can dissolve before your eyes, but there's always something to hold on to, always something to be grateful for.

My life is so beautiful!

i suppose

i should update this

i broke up with ryan

he used me hardcore

i'm 7000 in debt

and it's his fault

i'm couch surfing, and it sucks

and applying for low income housing on monday

ouch

wow

sooo, we looked at a place last night. And took it. That's right folks... despite all of the internal warnings, all of the advice from trusted friends and family, everything everyone's saying... I'm giving him another chance, and moving in with the fucker.

we start moving things on Monday.

I went and picked him up at 5:35 this morning... he'd been up for almost 48 hours straight, and was beyond messed up. And I still love him...

Why in the world do people drown out their pain instead of experiencing it?? I mean, how bad can it really be?? and how can you love someone who hurts you so badly??

today...

nothing ever really changes. You live the same thing over and over again, because the way you experience it is so uniquely you. You experience life through your eyes, your emotions, your perceptions. Therefore everything is just a degree of emotion, and the various combinations are what creates experience. I am very much in tune with my emotions, and they are becoming familiar to me. Like, knowing a house after living in it all your life... my body is my house, and my brain is my temple... and I am learning to be comfortable with that. It's enlightening.

oh, and go to www.nexopia.com

search username island~bound

that's me :)